Bloganuary prompt day two is “how are you brave?” I’m just on a pit stop on our drive home from the holidays up North with family and took a look at the prompt. I didn’t expect to be able to write it so quickly, but I have one immediately that came to mind.
Something that I have been working on to be brave is advocating for my personal needs. In a previous post, I talked about being more aware of my sensory needs and anxiety, and being convinced I have undiagnosed autism. I am a huge advocate for my clients who have various abilities and challenges, and I’ve realized over the years that I am not a great advocate for myself. This last little while I’ve become more outspoken about my anxiety, and while I’m not ready to “come out” as neurodiverse to my family, I talk about it a lot with certain friends and with my fiancée.
Yesterday I did something that I consider brave, and I set a boundary for myself for my sensory needs. I started getting a headache in the afternoon and then started getting overwhelmed. By dinner time I decided to tell my fiancées family that I would not be joining the big family dinner because of my headache. I contemplated doing it, but realized that as guilty as I felt (why do I feel guilty though?), through my whole life I would just push through and be so uncomfortable. And then I realized why would I let myself suffer so badly – my headache turned into me being able to hear lights, every sound in the house and my bones moving – when I could just hermit in my room with the lights off and my sound cancelling headphones.
So my reflection for the prompt “how are you brave” is that I am starting to be brave by speaking out about my mental health and advocating for myself. I want to be able to be 100% present and comfortable when I’m with people, and that means I need to work on knowing when I need to step away and do self care, and to be brave enough to share why I can’t do certain things ❤️
If you’re not already doing bloganuary, you can share in the comments how you are brave 🙂 it feels nice to celebrate yourself !